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Sounds Of The World

I never realized how much the sound of the world meant to me,
How the sound of wind through the trees de-stressed me,

How a busy city made me feel important,

How the sound of your heartbeat made me feel loved,

and how as the night comes, silence falls, and all i feel is happy

-Becky, September 3 2017

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All The Little Things / Poem / My thoughts #1

It’s all the little things you do,

that make me want to love you.

The small subtle glances,

the smiles and laughter that you carefully direct towards me.

Everyday my mind clouds with you,

your eyes,

they draw me in,

and your smile,

is your best look.

You make me want to love you,

You make me want us to grow old,

and make memories,

I want you to kiss me,

and hug me,

and be there for me like I’d be there for you.

But sadly you don’t seem to move,

and I’m almost tired of waiting.

See you make me want to love you,

But its hard when you don’t seem to want to love me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Dont Let Standards Shape Who You Are

Staying true to who you really are can sometimes be very difficult, especially living in the society we have now. Nowadays so many people want you to act a certain way, look a certain way, talk a certain way and all kinds of things. Everyone says that you need to look like a model, be skinny, have perfect skin, perfect eyebrows, long hair and just have the perfect body. When in reality the number of people who have all of those “standards” are pretty low.

So many of us these days are so self-conscious, all because of what some stupid person said at one point. We aren’t wearing what we wish, we aren’t saying what we want too, it’s almost like we’re not allowed to do this because it makes us an “outcast” or “different”. Its like we’re not even allowed to believe in certain things because it’s just “weird”.

In reality if we’re being “different” and “weird” all it means is that we’re not becoming part of the black and white. When you are the exact same as everyone else around you, its kind of boring because you don’t get to try anything new or do anything because it’s not what everyone else is doing.

Wanting to meet everyone’s standards is never going to happen, I’m sorry to let you down but that’s just the truth. IF SOMEONE TELLS YOU, YOU NEED TO LOOK OR ACT A CERTAIN WAY, DON’T FEEL OBLIGATED TO DO IT!!! Set your own goals of what you want to look like, if you want to lose weight or get any cosmetic procedures, just make sure you’re doing them for yourself and not for anyone else! The only person you need to impress is yourself.

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! Do not believe what anyone tells you about yourself, because only you know what is true about who you are! No matter what body shape you have, no matter what skin type or tone you have, no matter what hair type or anything, God made you beautiful. Every single person on this planet was hand crafted and you are nothing less than amazing. No matter what you’re going through or what someone tells you, you are strong, you are brave, you are beautiful, you can get through anything, you are worth the whole world and more.

And remember, societal standards change all the time, and you are never alone, don’t listen to what people want you to be, because only you can decide who you become. You Are Beautiful. ❤

Cutting Out Toxic People

Let me start this off by saying I cant stand people who are constantly being negative towards everything and every one. As well as people who always treat people with disrespect, especially their family. This is how I would perfectly describe this girl who had been in my life since I was 4 years old.

Now I know it can sometimes be really hard to cut out people, especially if they have been in your life for a number of years. Sometimes it just has to be done. Once it goes from it being a fine friendship/relationship to an emotionally/physically abusive situation it becomes something you NEED to leave. In relationships like these on the outside it can seem like everything is fine but when you’re alone it can get quite bad. This is what I went through with this girl for almost 3 years!

This girl who Im not going to name started getting into some not so great stuff about 2ish years ago. She started drinking and started doing drugs and I told her that it’s not a good idea and that she shouldn’t do it, I tried to convince her that she shouldn’t do it, after that she also started to hangout with the wrong crowd and the wrong type of people and all I tried to do was help her but she wouldn’t listen. After all this went down is when she started going down hill. She would constantly make fun of me, treat me like I was an unimportant person to her, like I didn’t matter at all. She would make fun of others who she had never spoke to or even met. She started being incredibly rude to her parents who have never done anything but be there for her and support her. But that’s just who she became and I didn’t like it. Now don’t ask me why I stayed friends with her for so long because honestly, I don’t even know why.

But if anyone out there has gone through something similar to this or is going through this I just want you to know that you can get through this. I know its going to be hard to leave this person especially if they have been in your life for numerous years and especially if you see them quite often but it has to be done. Its only going to better you, its going to stop the mental/physical abuse. If you do decide to cut out a toxic person, don’t worry about hurting their feelings because just think about how much they’ve hurt you over that time that you’ve been friends. So don’t worry about them, just worry about yourself and trying to be your best self possible, because in the end leaving that person is only going to better you. Be strong.